Friday, September 11, 2015

God Works From A Calendar All His Own



If I've learned anything at all in my journey as a believer, it is that God works from a calendar all his own. No matter what my calendar says, he's never late, and (alas) he's never early.

I recall an instance a few years ago, during a challenging time of unemployment.

With only a few hundred dollars left to my name, and no more unemployment checks coming in, I was a bit anxious about paying a mortgage without an income. However, I reminded God often that his Word promised to provide. I didn't know how, but I knew he would.

Out of the blue one day, I thought of a tax credit that I should've claimed the year before. How had I forgotten something so significant? Within a few weeks, I had researched the matter, filed the proper paperwork and received over six thousand dollars in the mail. The facts of my calendar said those funds came to me a year late, but the facts of God's calendar said they came when I needed them most.

And recently, while perusing through my Facebook messages, I found a message that had been sent to me over a year ago. I hadn't seen it at the time, because it had been diverted into a "spam" folder of sorts. 

“Hello, Gayle. You don’t know me,” the message began, and indeed, I did not. However, as I read this person's gracious words and sensed the honest emotions shared, I knew that the message had been diverted and delayed by divine design.


My immediate circumstances had me feeling worthless, as though my life had no value, no meaning, just a colossal waste of time. But the writings of this thoughtful stranger was God's way of assuring me that my life has eternal value, and nothing can ever rescind that.

The note ended like this: "I hope you realize the importance of your life, ministry and music, and how it has influenced others. It has instilled in me something that will never diminish.” The facts of my calendar said those encouraging words were meant to be read a year earlier, but the facts of God's calendar said I read them when I needed them most.


Romans 8:28 says: "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God." That scripture can be puzzling when your heart is heavier than bricks and you cry every day, no matter how hard you try not to. But every believer's journey is a journey of faith. You either trust God, or you don't.

The other night, while standing in my kitchen, tears falling like rain, I told God—in a very loud voice—that I still trust him. I don't understand the inky darkness surrounding me, Lord, and some days I can hardly breathe, my heart is so heavy within, but my faith in you will not waiver. It will not waiver, Lord. It will not waiver!

Though I can't see my hand in front of my face, I will trust you! Though the storms rage and the waves crash, I will trust you! Though the howling winds of sorrow blow, and blow, and BLOW, I will trust you, Lord! Today! Tomorrow! Always! You are the captain of my vessel, and even if it's dashed into a million tiny pieces, leaving nothing but me and the angry sea, I know you are with me, Lord, and you can walk on water. ♦

"Our soul waiteth for the Lord: he is our help and our shield," Psalm 33:20.


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10 comments:

  1. Gayle, I love this post because it is a testament to God's faithfulness. That last paragraph spoke to me in a powerful way--as you already know, this last month has been a dark one for me in many ways BUT GOD....................!

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    1. Continued prayers for you. God cares about every detail of our lives.

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  2. I might have written this post but for your specific circumstances. Same story, different characters and settings--and isn't that the comforting thing about our Heavenly Father.
    Thanks for these kindred encouraging words today, milady.
    Joy!
    Kathy

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  3. Glad you shared this very personal experience with us. All you have to do is trust and obey.

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  4. The story of the Facebook message gave me goosebumps. It reminded me of a similar time in my life when I rediscovered a note in my wallet, sent to me by a reader many years prior. I'd forgotten its message and needed to re-read it at that particular day in my life. God's timing is perfect and He cares about everything in our lives.

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  5. Honestly you have no idea how much i can identify with this post. It has been a hard, hard couple of months. My blog is generally light and airy and full of what I busy myself with to keep my mind occupied, but it has been hard nonetheless. But I too can testify that our God NEVER leaves us or forsakes us and WILL meet our every need! Soo many little encouraging ways He has let me know this. Nothing quite as dramatic as your Facebook message thing [gave me goosebumps too!] but meaningful and at just the right moment. How grateful I am for a loving God. Hope things lighten for you soon, but happy that God is seeing you through!

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  6. What an amazing story of God providing for you!! Thanks so much for sharing it.

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  7. What an amazing story of God providing for you!! Thanks so much for sharing it.

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  8. Amen to this wonderful testimony of faith! I can certainly relate to this as well...through many situations and adverse circumstances, the Lord always comes through in ways that leave me totally in awe of Him. Thank you for sharing your story and your heart.

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  9. God Bless you Gayle...So many times when I have thought I just could not take another breath because of so much turmoil in my life, I will get an email from my son with just four words... I.Love.You.Mom.....God is good.

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